Eternally

Friday, October 10, 2008

不堪一击

我只想走开。
当一切原来已经被看得那么透彻。
失败的感觉很不好受。
就算有些事或许根本就没有所谓的胜利与失败。
我就是不喜欢占下风的感觉。
原来“waves per second”是最重要的一个环节
wavelength、amplitude、time每一个细节都不能忽略。
我很容易的就输在这个骨节眼上了。
因为凑合三个精准的数字对我来说不容易。
或许不是不容易，是很难。
突然间发现原来Newton's third law不是必然的。
For a force, there is always an EQUAL and opposite reaction原来也是一种奢望。

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我只是有些失望。
我只是讨厌什么都不是的感觉。
我有点厌倦这样的失落感。

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

grumbles

sem break is over.
and this week is already the 10th week of the semester.
6 more weeks the semester will be ended.
though there are many assignments waited to be finished, i still cant concentrated on them.
i am stressed out.
feel like crying now.
it has been a long time that i never felt so stressed like this way since the first semester i was in limkokwing.
i sit in front of the computer but most of the time i just stare at it and doing nth.
there is nobody that i can talk with as i know i am nt the only one person who is feeling stressed, everybody is stressed.
no one will have so much time to waste on listening others' grumbles.
me neither...
somemore i dun feel like talking to others except my very few close friends who are very busy too.
i dun know why i am so emotional.
sometimes i hate myself to be like that.
i havent slept well recently.
i lost the appetite.
i just took one meal the whole day yesterday, which was my dinner,
i know i shouldnt be like this at this time.
but i just cant do anything.
oh pls come back, my motivation.
i need you! urgently!
hope that i will have mood back after this post.
dun know what to write ald.
maybe i should stop here and go back to my work.
V.P. go go go! pluck up your spirits!

Monday, October 06, 2008

黑黑的与青青的

刚刚发现我的房间颜色还蛮极端的。
一张桌子几乎都是黑黑的，另一张桌子却又青青的。
第一张桌子是用来做software功课的，另外一张桌子是用来画画的。
IKEA黑黑的桌子，Altec Lansing黑黑的喇叭，Cooler Master黑黑的cooler pad，Logitech黑黑的keyboard还有Lexma黑黑的mouse。
还有还有，黑黑的wallpaper，黑黑的皮包，就连电话也是黑黑的。
哈哈! 虽然黑色的成分比较重，但是我还是最爱青色。
我喜欢小绿帮送的“小绿”，青青的七仔，青色图案的杯，还有那个青青的水罐（我还有另外一个体型长得一样水罐，不过是黑色的），三个青青色的Milo杯，就连桌子上面的那一罐Panadol也是青青色的。

几乎全黑的满桌东西，幸好我的Toshiba是银色的。

黑黑的皮包和电话。

我的新电话！ Asus P320。幸好拍摄的时候还没有到傍晚六点，不然连电话的theme也是黑黑的，因为傍晚开始theme就会变得night theme。

很多青青色的桌子！喜欢它很亮！两张桌子真的色点差很远。我还是要强调，我真的很喜欢青色，哈哈！

p/s 最近很忙。之前拍的照片迟点才会整理出来。也是在马路上拍的，不过是另外一个“model”，哈哈！纯粹是因为当事人很想拍，很想展现他想成为模特儿的欲望，在他的强烈要求下所以我才会再次出山的，不过这次没有躺马路。哈哈！不知道他看到这段后会不会想杀我。